Recently I’ve been inspired to think of myself less. Self-referencing can be such a time-consuming pursuit. Take for example, some typical thoughts that cycle in my head on a given morning:
What should I get for breakfast.
I miss listening to NPR.
I feel so awkward.
I really like hanging out with them. They always make me laugh.
Ugh. I can’t believe she did that. I can’t get over it!
My stomach feels weird.
After someone had challenged me to keep a mental tally of how often I thought about myself in a day, I concluded that the only way I could escape this was to be unconscious! Looking back on my xanga days, I now see that I wrote so much because I wanted so much to be known. I wanted people to know and love my family. I wanted to people to know weird things about me that only a good friend would know. I wanted people to know about my angst and think that I had substance.
Not that I don’t want to known anymore.
It’s just that I realized that I am known. I’ve always been known.
Blogapathy.
March 18th, 2009 at 9:30 am
:p
March 19th, 2009 at 10:52 am
hmm i feel like the other way around where i’ve been blogging all the time (for the past 3 days only)
March 27th, 2009 at 7:41 am
:]
i like you. hahaha.
April 10th, 2009 at 8:54 am
All these thoughts ran through my head this past week.
What should I get for breakfast (went to Safeway and bought cereal today).
I miss listening to NPR (their soothing, professional voices are like aural crack…and Prairie Home Companion…that dude is smooth and funny).
I feel so awkward (daily).
I really like hanging out with them. They always make me laugh. (in-laws)
Ugh. I can’t believe she did that (I won’t say who). I can’t get over it! (But I did)
My stomach feels weird (right now).
We must be related. Time to scour the family tree. Gotta be somewhere between my dad and Adam & Eve.
May 3rd, 2009 at 4:27 pm
sounds like you’re on twitter!
August 17th, 2009 at 8:04 am
meep… meep… meep….
(onomatopoeia)
September 16th, 2009 at 8:03 pm
dear ms. lam,
i miss your well-written, hilarious blog posts. please continue to blog again.
your biggest fan,
tim